When I married my first husband, I wasn't anticipating going through a divorce. I wasn't anticipating that he would become a raging alcoholic and I didn't anticipate essentially having to start my life over at age 25.

Now, with wedding number two coming up, I have been experiencing something strange. Anxiety. A lot of it.

I could let myself get lost in the wedding planning and ignore it, but I've learned from past experiences that this is not healthy. However, facing my anxiety dead on has been harder than I thought.

Perhaps I'm older and there's more life stuff to deal with than when I was in my early 20s, or perhaps I'm more aware of the challenges of marriage. I also know the pain of having a failed marriage and I truly don't want to go through that again.

Change is a natural part of life. The bigger the change, the more stress and anxiety that can stem from it and I'm definitely feeling it.